College came with its temptations. The first few weeks, I went out to all the parties, drank more than I should have, and acted like someone I wasn't. And then I became a part of Chi Omega, which was honestly a huge blessing. But, it also brought more temptations. We had pregames and exchanges with fraternities, so I was going out a few times a week. Going out, getting drunk, and exploring the bar scene. I had a blast with my new sorority sisters, but the partying had consequences: hangovers, drunk binge eating, random hookups, and tears.
It took me until the end of the semester to realize that my actions were not glorifying God.
Over break, I did a lot of thinking, and I came to a decision: I would still go out, but I was done with the binge drinking. There's nothing wrong with having a drink, but as soon as a person loses her ability to think clearly, problems arise. Well, for me, at least.
So that's what I'm trying to do this semester. And it's proving to be a lot more difficult that I thought.
Last night, a ton of girls in my sorority went out together to celebrate our recent initiation. I stayed in and worked on homework instead. It didn't bother me... until this morning, when I realized just how much I missed out on.
It was all over Facebook: "What a night!" one girl wrote. "Well, that was one for the books," typed another. Suddenly, I felt like crying. I want to be on the inside. I want to laugh about the night's antics. I want to be a part of the crazy memories.
...But I don't want to get drunk anymore.
Is there a balance? Is it possible?